I have spent the past couple of days cleaning out my garage, and classroom, pictured here. It has given me time to think about what I am doing, and more importantly, what I want to do moving forward.
It has been a long road, and a good one. I certainly can’t complain. I have made, and lost, a lot of friends here on the net, for whatever reasons. Making videos and sharing my knowledge over the years has been something I can look back on with great satisfaction.
I am at the point here that I have to question what I am doing though. Being full time Army, with limited time as it is, and having a family whom I love very much. I have to ask myself, is it worth it anymore? Its a tough decision to make indeed. I don’t want to stop, but the time I take away from family, as limited as it is, to run this outdoor business and shoot videos for youtube, is at the point where I don’t think it is worth it any longer, unfortunately. I see folks shooting vids from their couches and getting 4k+ views haha. Here I am, actually Doing It, outdoors….and the views are hard pressed to say the least. It has never been about the views, or subscribers, or being the best school out there to me. If you know me personally, or have been following along….you know this. But I have to be honest here. If I were a writer for a magazine and did a column every month, and nobody read it….would I continue to write? Of course not. This is not dissimilar to that. What is the point on making videos when 1k out of 40k people watch or read? So that is where I am at with it all, again, unfortunately.
I will not shut down my youtube channel as it has been a lot of time and work putting together all of these videos for you all. But moving forward, the videos may be few and far between, to say the least. I enjoy doing them, and will continue to shoot them, but not on a regular basis. I think this is a record month for me actually (February) where I have posted 17 videos in the last 21 days. But the views are sub-par at best. As far as classes and my school goes….I intend on running out this whole year for what I have scheduled. So if you are coming to classes this year, no worries, we gotcha covered. We will see how it goes after that, and whether we continue paying 2k+ a year in insurance to continue this.
This is not a “poor me” blog. I don’t want, or need, your sympathy, honestly. I just felt the need to air out what’s on my mind and where I am planning to go here with the school in the future, for the sake of you all.
Honestly I cant say. If things pick up, I may change my mind and continue on with what I’m doing. If not….I will shoot videos when, and if, I have the time.
May the good Lord bless you all, and I wish you all the best. Take care, and maybe I’ll see ya in the woods.